Don't Quit!

I always have mixed feelings about Friday's. I am SO happy the weekend is here but worried about my calorie consumption throughout the weekend. I have also found myself worrying about another thing recently -- and that is what if I can't keep this up and get to my goal? I think about how disappointed I would be and how much I would hate myself for it and then have all these regrets and shit. I'm not saying I'm thinking about quitting or can see it happening in the near future, but I'm just a worrier. I NEED to keep this up and get to my goal. I tell myself if you can't do it now your doomed for life. My thinking on that is if I can't lose 30ish lbs now, how am I ever going to do it when I'm older and I most likely would have A LOT more to lose then just 30 lbs??? I also tell myself (although this isn't true) that Steve won't want to be with me anymore if I'm not active/in-shape. Why? Well because then I'd be a total hypocrite! I wouldn't want my partner to be fat/in-active/lazy -- so I can't be either! It goes both ways. I can't expect him to be working out all the time and have this ripped body if I'm not. Plus it is fun to workout together and would be fun to cook healthy meals together! We could bond and get closer to each other by doing these things and also would probably have more respect for the person and be so proud of them too!

It also helps me to think about how much better I would feel about myself and how much better my life would be IN SO MANY ASPECTS if I was skinny/in shape. What is it even like to be skinny without having to suck/hold your stomach in??? I have no idea. Can my stomach ever be flat with me making NO effort to make it look like that? The answer is - it can but it is going to take MONTHS AND MONTHS of being STRICT when it comes to eating/exercising. I didn't gain all this weight in a day so I won't lose it in a day either!!!

I hate having these negative 'what if I don't make it' thoughts pop up in my head all the time. I need to keep doing what I have been, and telling myself I CAN DO IT. I know that because I AM DOING IT RIGHT NOW. There is no excuse. I have all the tools I need and I know what I should be doing to drop the weight. If I don't make it to my goal, it's not because I can't do it, it's because I gave up and don't want it bad enough. I hope that NEVER happens and I can continue to motivate myself and stick to it. I want it so bad right now and hope I still want it just as bad 3-4 months from now.

IT WILL BE WORTH IT.
YOU WILL BE SO MUCH HAPPIER IN LIFE (not to mention healthier!)
IF YOU DON'T MAKE IT YOU WILL REGRET IT.
SUFFER NOW, BE SKINNY LATER!
IF YOU CAN'T DO THIS NOW, YOU WILL BE FAT/MISERABLE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!